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This year, i received one of the most memorable and useful present from the most special person in my life right now. She has always been with me, through thick and thin. There are times where we severely disagree with each other, which usually ends in me taking a step back and letting her “win” the whole tug-o-war. She has put me through times of happiness, unhappiness, excitement. Simply put, being with her is like a roller coaster ride in one of the most crazy theme parks ever built or conceived by mankind.

Yet, this is the same girl that has propelled me through incredible growth, where i cry, i laugh, seek for advice like a helpless boy crying for his mother, ponder over certain things, and simply come to terms with myself and who i am. She has made me stronger. By being with her, i learnt patience, money management, temper control, 3 of my biggest flaws. Of course, like life itself which is constantly changing, i am constantly building up these 3 characteristics of mine.

This Christmas as i reflect on my life and looked back on my years, even though it was not the way i wanted it to turn up, i am grateful for all the events that lead up to today. She has made me a better person. I am definitely better because of her but i do not dare to foresee the road ahead of me. If we are both going towards the same goal, i believe a life of highest fulfillment will reach us. For now, i am just going to do the best i can in whatever i can, my job, my studies and my family. I haven’t spoke to my grandmother in 2 weeks, maybe its time to call her and tell her how much i love her. In case you are wondering, no, my grandmother is not the girl. As for who the girl is, someday, sometime, you will know when i am rich and famous.

Today, i am going to talk about the concept of filial piety. Before i was mature enough, i always blamed my mother for nagging at me, not showing me enough concern, causing me embarrassment, but after going through each and every event in my life, i understood that she was the one who was always by my side, supporting me, helping me. I feel very ashamed that i am still not independent enough that she has to keep working at the age of 55. Throughout her life, she has been guiding me subtly and helping me in whatever ways she can, yet i being the immature fool could not comprehend the various things she has done for me and continuously blamed her for every stupid choices that i made myself.

Slowly, i am understanding the folly of my 20 years of combined brashness and insensitivity. I am determined to make sure that she feel the love her children has for her. Sometimes, when i see her working 10 to 13 hours a day, i cannot help but feel a tinge of sadness. If i was a bit more sensible a bit earlier, i could never have spent the way i did, wasted my time the way i did and continuously strives to give her a much better life than all she has experienced. She has always been the silent warrior supporting her 3 children by herself since my dad passed away. She might not know it, but my life is so much better because she was my mother. My life experiences has humbled me, and in the process, open me up to what is the most important thing in my life, my family. As we safely tide over “the end of the world”, perhaps its a good chance to ask yourself what do you hold dear to yourself?

Thank you my mother, for you made me who i am today. Even though i might not be much now, but someday, you will enjoy one of the best life that is humanly possible. Until then, i will keep on walking and striving towards that goal.

Dreams… Every living human being has a dream they want to reach. For some, becoming rich is the dream whereas for others, to be able to help people is the dream. For me, i have always changed my dreams as i progress through my life…

When i was young, i thought about becoming an explorer, like a real life Indiana Jones going around, exploring ruins and caves, digging treasures until my family persuaded me that much of the known world has already been explored. After that, i changed my dream. I wanted to go to Japan and live there to experience their culture, that was my dream when i was around 14. At that age, i was already fascinated by the Japanese culture. When i was 16, i thought about becoming a businessman and striking it rich. I tried and successfully for a short while, earned some significant income doing some online business. Finally, after i served in the army, with my cumulated knowledge from my years of education, interaction, thoughts, settled on creating a fund as my dream, meaning i will become a fund manager.

However, this is an incredibly tough road that tons of other smart people from many other different countries will be competing with me. We will be required to slit each other’s throat, well not literally. There is a known fact being told around, a dollar in your pocket is a dollar lost from another’s pocket. As of right now, i am gaining momentum towards my dreams. The obstacles are abound, and you would be so surprised if i listed it down but i believe that step by step, day by day, i will simply do the best i can each day to move towards my goal.

There are a few reason why i wanted to become a fund manager. Financial independence is one. Other reasons include that being a fund manager, i can do what i like: managing capital and making it grow. As i continue towards my dreams with student loans, debts and increasing competition from around the world, poverty and stress, the only way you can go once you reached the bottom is up… or simply just burn up and perish. Haha.

I will go towards my dreams right now. Too often have i given up on something because it is tough or i simply lost interest and only came to regret it later. I have tons of real life experiences that i will be sharing here that i hope would benefit people who are much younger than me or even older. I believe in my dreams and will keep on moving forward no matter what people say. What about you? How old are you right now? Are you striving towards your dreams now?